LXE™

Many things have happened recently, both bad and good. It's hard for me to cope as I have just came back from Matrik, everything seems so different..

My family members were strucked by illness, quite severe if you ask me, especially my grandma who is getting older and older is having a difficult time. She was so independent before this, now she still insists on being independent but that's not possible. Though it seems impossible for us, she still wouldn't listen to us and continue to do things… Continue

Why do we always have to separate everytime we meet?
Why do we always have to leave?
Why can't we just stay...?
Sad songs kept playing on my mind.
Am I too naive?
I don't understand why things have to move on.
I don't get it, I don't get it...
Time is ticking life away each and every second.
We are growing old without realising it.
Every now and then,
We are all preoccupied by our works and tasks.
No one cares about everyone around them.
How I wish I can stop time.
How I wish I can stay in secon… Continue

I'm lost...
All I know is that I have to think positively,
And I need someone to talk to,
But I can't find anyone to express myself,
I don't know how to get rid of this feelings,
I feel so frustrated,
I can feel my pessimism,
My voice is becoming vague, blurred
No one can ever understands what I wanna say anymore,
Even my heart is becoming deaf,
Who else I can turn to?

Thinking of my failures, I am frustrated
Counting my failures, I lost count
Sorting out my failures, I can find no solution
Wha… Continue

When I was in KMK or KMC(Kedah Matriculation College), I cared about someone quite much, much more than usual friend does. I'm wondering whether it's my weakness or not, I easily fall for someone, so I started to intervene her daily life later on. Anyhow, it's not like I've drilled into her life, but I asked about everything and tried to share as much things as possible. Thinking of her being "ok ok" and her things were quite smooth makes me feel a bit better, it's like reward for my successful… Continue

(Err.. Premarital sex then kena lottery one is totally out of topic here,k? This will totally put everyone in dilemma. However, I can't assure that also lar...)

I've read a mail about babies abortion lately and I remembered about a Buddhist class during NS which introduced the dark side of babies abortion too. It's so cruel to kill a life that has not even fully developed. It has never even seen a stray of light in this world and it will be sent to somewhere else.

However, maybe, JUST MAYBE, o… Continue